JAMES' JOURNALS

Below are a handful of journal entries from James Broughton’s journal, during the period when he met Joel Singer. They provide a rare view inside the head of the romantic wordsmith. James kept extensive journals.

April 5th 1975

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Mutual Joy

But this is not so.

Yesterday swept me with desire, despite faculty meeting at Gunvor’s, lunch with Merril Greene, and Suzanna under the weather from glucose tests. I went to Joel’s, willy nilly.

April 6th 1975

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It Must Be Lived First

This is I think an archetypal situation that I have never been in before. I feel a bit like Andre Gide. Wondering how to be true to passion and to honesty at the same time.

April 9th 1975

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You Are Love

It is still hard to write. But I must try. ~ miraculous is overwhelming, overwhelms words. The most intense experiences like mysticism have no mundane vocabulary.

April 26th 1975

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If My Angel Insists – San Anselmo

Returning, I plunge into the’ predicament’ again. But I came back by way of another night with Joel, wherein I had to acknowledge all over again the force of this passion in its ramifications and intensities, above all in its sense of erotic fulfillment. As I had always dreamed, longed for, thought

May 30th 1975

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There Is No Such Thing As Empty Space

o my Beloved! How do I adore thee! My joyfilled praises shout to the sky. My blissfilled gratitudes reverberate my heart. I am come closer to my Me, and that means close closer to Thee.